Ice

*(verse 1)* I remember when I found you in the dark Some ugly Tuesday, falling apart You didn't fix me, no, you cracked me open wide And poured yourself in every broken side You were cold, god you were *cold* But cold felt better than the nothing I had known I built myself around your freeze Made your ice my home, made your ice my home *(pre-chorus)* I tried to leave, I packed my bags like three damn times Stood at the door, told myself *this is the line* But my hands were shaking and my chest caved in And I dropped everything and crawled back in *(chorus)* 'Cause I can't breathe without you And I fucking hate that it's true You're killing me so slowly, so beautiful I'm blue, I'm blue, I'm blue I don't want you, I need you And that's not the same, I know it's not the same But I stay God help me, I stay *(verse 2)* There was a time I had something warm Before you — before the whole world tore I lost it and I lost myself right after You showed up like cold air through broken rafters And I rebuilt on you, I rebuilt on *ice* Stupid, yeah, I know, not very wise But you were *there*, and there was nothing else I threw away the last good parts of myself *(pre-chorus)* I tried to quit you like a cigarette Told myself one day I wouldn't feel this yet But withdrawal hits different when it's in your bones When you're the only reason I feel whole *(chorus)* 'Cause I can't breathe without you And I fucking hate that it's true You're killing me so slowly, so beautiful I'm blue, I'm blue, I'm blue I don't want you, I need you And that's not the same, I know it's not the same But I stay God help me, I stay *(bridge)* You freeze me out and then you pull me back You make me feel insane for just reacting I know what this is, I know what you are I've read the signs, I've got the fucking scars But there's this silence when you're gone That eats me whole, that eats me *alive* And I'd rather bleed out in your cold Than survive *(final chorus — raw)* I can't breathe without you I *hate* that it's true You're the worst thing that ever felt this right You're the ice, you're the ice, you're the ice I don't want you, I need you And I know it's not love I know it's not love But I stay I stay I stay *(outro)* Stay… Stay… *Stay…*