You know, I loved you truly

You know, I loved you truly, To shivers, to the heart’s deep ache. You know, I killed so cruelly The pride that lived for my own sake. You know how hard it was to leave you, To let you go, to close the door. At night I’d cry, I’d scream, I’d grieve you — Collected tears in liter-poor. You know how silent I could be then, When my soul was tearing through the skin, When life got harsh, when thoughts froze deep then, When winter swept the light within. Jealousy and visions fed on me, They ripped my heart, they had no shame. I begged: "I won’t wait anymore, please!" And then... you came. And left again. But one day I just got too tired — Tired of waiting, tired of pain. A window brightened, hope was hired, The darkness started to wane. My thoughts grew sharper, clearer, bolder, I looked around — and saw the light. "I want to live," I told my shoulder, "And let the pain fade out of sight." I’ll learn to love again tomorrow, And tomorrow will be a brand new day. Without you there, without the sorrow, Without «us two» — I’ll find my way. I’ll become strong — I swear it deeply, I’ll start my life where love is true. I love myself — so truly, steeply — The me I am. The one I grew