Noir

Noir I’m the life of every party, standing tall and bright, All eyes on me — it’s thrilling, but it doesn’t feel right. Thin threads, thin threads, they’re tangled in my chest, When I need a hand to hold, I’m left to face the test. Why do they cheer when I’m shining, but turn away when I fall? “Oh, don’t worry, you’re so strong!” — that’s their favourite call. I’m not an actress, but I play the friend so well, Smile and nod, pretend I’m fine — it’s a story I can tell. Noir, it’s my colour, dark and deep inside, Alone in the spotlight, nowhere left to hide. They say I’m so amazing, but do they really see? Or am I just a shadow in their fantasy? Oh-oh-oh, nanana, la-la-la-la, Mmm, mmm, yeah, yeah, nanana-la. My friends are close, but never near — it’s such a bitter game, They talk and laugh, they share their dreams, but never ask my name. Rain, rain, relentless rain — it falls upon my heart, While they’re dancing in the sunshine, playing their own part. “Don’t you feel lonely?” — oh, of course I do, you see? But who would listen anyway? Just another sob story, free. I wear a mask of happiness, a smile that’s not my own, In this crowded room I’m lonely — I’m so far from home. Noir, it’s my colour, dark and deep inside, Alone in the spotlight, nowhere left to hide. They say I’m so amazing, but do they really see? Or am I just a shadow in their fantasy? Oh-oh-oh, nanana, la-la-la-la, Mmm, mmm, yeah, yeah, nanana-la. Rough roads, rough roads — where do I belong? The world is spinning faster, I’ve been waiting far too long. “You’re so independent!” — yes, I am, what a prize, No one notices the cracks behind these painted eyes. Do they ever wonder why I’m always on my own? “Oh, she likes it that way!” — isn’t that convenient, though? I’m not an actress, but the role of friend I play, Perfect smile, perfect lines — just another day. Is this the price of being strong — to be unseen, unknown? To shine so bright, yet feel so cold, all alone? No more masks, no more faking — my heart’s awake. Noir… just me and the night, No more lights, no more disguise. Noir… I see the truth so clear: I don’t need their light — I’ll find my own sphere. Nanana, oh-oh, la-la-la… Fade to black… Noir.